The content of the novel comes from-DIDIDA Novels
Translator: Dragon Boat Translation Editor: Dragon Boat Translation
Shen Xiaoxiao felt that she had never talked about relationships with 19. They were also talking about children, business, or other miscellaneous things.
But when she suddenly heard 19 talking about these things with her, she was a little confused for a moment. But she had to admit that 19 was right.
In fact, she had discovered a long time ago that there was something wrong with the way she and Yan Kuan interacted. Before they had children, the two of them would fight each other, test each other, and hide. Even if there was a conflict, they would do it directly, when they were tired of doing it, the
conflict would be suppressed. They would think that it was gone, but at a certain moment, it would suddenly erupt.
Otherwise, they wouldn’t have been separated for three years. Of course, there were many other reasons for their separation back then.
But if she didn’t have no confidence in Yan Kuan, she wouldn’t have hidden with her children for three years.
This matter wasn’t something that could be settled just by saying it.
Originally, she also thought that she couldn’t forgive Yan Kuan so easily. After all, there were many injuries. She couldn’t forgive him just because he said he was sorry.
‘They couldn’t just make love a few times to solve the problem in bed.
Some problems, it was there, not solved at all.
Yes, you hurt my heart, your accident I am more anxious like a grave, want to hurt yourself.
But these were all because of his love, but this love was not used to show extravagance, not used to wantonly hurt.
Perhaps when your life was threatened, you would find that all these little problems were not problems. But when people calmed down, many problems that you thought could be ignored still existed.
Shen Xiaoxiao admitted that she did not know how to fall in love, and did not know how to maintain their relationship.
The two of them were feeling the stones and crossing the river, learning little by little.
It was not the same. She could not deny Yan Kuan’s efforts and some changes, but at the same time, she was also changing and learning.
It was just that there were many things that needed to be taken seriously, especially when Yan Kuan was himself.
She could not deny that the few conflicts were not all because Yan Kuan had everything under his control. He waited until everything was settled before telling her, but by then, it was already too late. Many misunderstandings had already been caused.
Many injuries had also been caused.
Therefore, 19’s words actually made some sense. Although she did not need to be so pretentious and didn’t need fresh flowers or sweet words, she needed to communicate even more. They needed to truly communicate.
“Then what do you think I should do?”
“Enjoy your own life as the prerequisite. Know how to protect yourself as the prerequisite.”
“Can you be more straightforward?”
What was going on with 19 today?
“Other than Huang Yueyan, do you have any other friends? Other than your career, do you have other interests? Besides, are those careers what you want to do?”
“Xiaoxiao, I hope that you can occasionally put aside your hatred and live your own life and live the life of an ordinary girl.”
“Even if you know that you’re not ordinary, that doesn’t mean that you can’t be ordinary.”
‘There was another sentence that 19 did not say out loud. “You’ve been through a lot. You should enjoy the time you have now. Don’t bother about those things anymore. Just have a good relationship. Even if you get married, you can still enjoy the fun of being in a relationship.”
“Find something that interests you. Don’t make yourself regret it in the future.”.
19 really wanted to say these words, but he did not say them out loud. However, after years of tacit understanding with 19, Shen Xiaoxiao did not hear the underlying meaning in his words.
19 probably did not want her to interfere in Jiang Haoran’s matters.
“Lunderstand what you mean. I will learn to change.”
“Learn to change? Then let me ask you, do you have anything that you want to do?”
Something that she wanted to do? Shen Xiaoxiao thought about it, but she did not think so.
She really did not. In her previous life, when she was at the club, the thing that she thought about the most was returning to China. After returning to China, she thought about how to win Pei Li’s favor, the favor of the Pei family, and after knowing the truth… She thought about how she could avenge the
Shen family. In the end, she was imprisoned. At that time, she thought about how she could escape.
In her previous life, she really did not have anything that she really wanted to do.
In this life, there did not seem to be much change in this life. Similarly, she returned to China to take revenge and revitalize the Shen family.
Of course, later on, she had to raise her two children well. She really did not think much about herself.
“Well, hobbies aren’t something you can have right away.”
19 looked at Shen Xiaoxiao in disappointment and said helplessly, “You’re really capable. Look at the other girls. They either like to shop, or they like flowers and grass, or they like pottery, dancing, and so on. There are too many of them. Don’t you have any hobbies that you like?”
When Shen Xiaoxiao heard 19 reject her every time, she felt that he despised her a little in his heart. She really didn’t have any hobbies. Was she really such a failure?
Thinking back to her childhood and the dreams that she had occasionally had, Shen Xiaoxiao cried out in surprise:
“Tknow what I want to do. I want to learn how to cook. Da Bao and Little Treasure both said that they had never eaten anything I cooked other than plain porridge. If I learned it, they would definitely be very happy. I want to learn how to cook the fried chicken wings that they like to eat, the braised beef
brisket that Yan Kuan likes, and the braised pork with preserved vegetables that you like to eat, and…”
Shen Xiaoxiao was so happy. When she turned to look at 19, she was embarrassed by 19’s gaze. Wasn’t he the one who told her to say something? Wasn’t learning how to cook counted?
“L really have to hand it to you. Just think of it as learning how to cook. Is there nothing else?”
“Hehe, actually, it’s not that there’s nothing else. It’s just that it’s not realistic to say it now.”
“What is it? How do you know if it’s not realistic if you don’t say it?”
Shen Xiaoxiao smiled and looked into the distance. She said faintly:
“Lwant to go to various places. It’s not like overseas. I just want to go to various places in China. You don’t know that when I was locked up in the club when I was young, the most I thought about was my home, my motherland. Hehe. At that time, I thought that when I had the chance, I would definitely go
through all the mountains and rivers in China.”
“Although I know that it’s not realistic to go around the world, it’s still pretty good if I want to go through all of China’s mountains and rivers.”
“It’s just that, hehehe, with my current body, I’m afraid I won’t even be able to walk out of the capital…”
That was indeed the case. After Shen Xiaoxiao returned to China, due to her tendons being torn off, not to mention traveling, even if she walked a little further, her limbs would be sore and painful. Not to mention enjoying life and traveling, even taking care of herself was a problem.
Therefore, these were only wishes that she buried deep in her heart. It was simply impossible to realize.
And in this life, with hatred, children, and now, tears of love, these were probably things that could not be realized in this life.
Hearing Shen Xiaoxiao say this, 19 then quietly cut off the call button and said to Shen Xiaoxiao, “Even if you want to travel around the world, forget about China. Let’s go, I’ll take you somewher